The Life Inside

My heart beats faster as I appreciate the life within me
I feel on top of the world as he starts to talk
I feel him now, I feel him every time
As I sit with him, as I take a walk

Days passed by and he grew with me
Talking to me always, and smiling
I still try hard to feel his shift
For it’s a deal between us of caring

Nervousness surrounds me every time
Sometimes he is so silent…
And as abrupt as it may sound
Yes, he is a bit too violent

He was growing, I could feel him breathe
And the heart was beating along
I talked to him all day all night
And took him for rides so long

One day he said to me, “Mamma
Please let me come to your world.
I’ll make you happy when you play with me
And I’ll turn your days to gold!”

The special moment of joy was there
As he smiled at me with delight
I took him in my lap so large
He was so sweet, so small, and so light…

I can’t remember how the days had passed
When I first felt his being inside
And my eyes fill with tears of happiness
As I see him sleeping beside….

I promise you my son today
I will give you a life of gold
But please don’t forget your mamma
As she grows some years old!!

Missing each other

I think of you, my helpless heart cries aloud
So much pain, I crib from inside
A feeling of desperation surrounds me
You are not there to sit beside

Days, I feel, are longer than ever
The nights are so cruel to me
I try to tell myself to be strong
And fight the heart that’s as lonely as me

Is it the same with you?
I ask this myself over and over again
And I feel the pain of your heart
I know there is nothing to gain…

Walking along with each other
We are in the same trail
And we are always together
But just like the tracks of a rail

But I do believe in destiny
For it’s the one that got us together
And I shall have patience a lot
For destiny to decide, nothing else does matter…

With this thought in my heart and mind
I shall keep on loving you
As I have always been
From the days of remembrance all through

I know my sweetheart
You too are in the same situation
But one thing we must realize
There will be a time which will change all condition

Till that time my darling
I will always be with you
Loving you, care for you
Adore you, always understand you

This time of testing won’t last long, I am sure
Because there is always a silver lining
Behind every dark cloud, it’s said
I believe the sun will shine upon us, forever smiling

The Wake up Call

I was sleeping on the lonesome bed
A pillow lay beside me hopelessly
Trying so hard to get some sleep
A distant dream annoying me so naturally

It was hard for me to fall asleep
I tried in vain to be in the dream
It wasn’t painless to be awake when
You stay awake in my thoughts and my dreams

I thought of you through the day
I thought of you all night long
You were there just beside me
Humming the tone of that beautiful song

The dream took me to those sweet moments
When we were together alone
No one in between, nobody to bother
Just the two of us in the moments bygone

I remember the feeling of your touch
The taste of sweet nectar…..
The feeling of anticipation doesn’t seem to fade off
It lingers on every now and after….

My nights go by just like this
Thinking of you, turning from a side to the other
Wish you were there to calm down
Every day, every night and another

The dream still disturbed me
Took me down the thoughts
And I found it so hard to fall asleep
I wish you were there to love me lots

I lay quietly over the bed
My eyes wide open, still dreaming
When I heard some distant tone
I realized, it was my phone that’s ringing

I heard your voice in whispers
Tried to figure out hard
Those three little words…..
Which my heart does always guard

The love we share is immortal, I realized
Beyond imagination or comparison…..
Extraordinarily unforgettable….
It needs no elucidation, illumination, revelation….

The wake up call made my day
Today, everyday and always
It’s now hard for me to turn it down
I know it’s you, anyways…….

Remembrance

Childhood days are mine, they bring happiness
The bygone days of life, I remember, kill my loneliness
Innocence recreated, reincarnated…..
My remembrance is what left of me now,
Sweetness, jolliness, cheerfulness!!

There was play, there was a song
There were fights, so lovely, so long…
There were days filled with fun
There were days filled with sunshine
My days of childhood are always mine….

The festives were a treat for me
New clothes, the food, the all new mood
Early to rise and late to bed
Oh!! Everything was so good!!

The rains would bring some extra happiness
Poodles of water and loads of mud
The school’s a must in the season…..
And after the shower that the earth would have
Some greener grass, the cleaner roads, a few little flower buds

Childhood love was also there
A love so innocent and pure…..
An attraction that’s never fatal
Its just natural….i am sure!

The share and care which always ruled
Our little minds and hearts
I feel so good when I think of it
And I go back to that part….

It was a world of our own created
Where we ruled all sorts
No punishments, no regulations
No verdict of courts

But what remains of now is remembrance
And still it’s solely mine
Sweetness, jolliness, cheerfulness
A feeling so divine

I’ll treasure it always and pass it on
To my child who needs a guide
And he would pass it on to his next
A pleasure to think it right!!

Repulsion

The bitterness was high, I realized
It led to so much of repulsion
The sweetness in me couldn’t defuse it
The deterioration persisted as it worsened the condition

Amidst all odds I had to carry on
For I have always been a winner!!
It’s so unlikely that I loose the battle with life
I fear and prepare for the worse
And tell myself, I will not be a loser...

I conditioned myself to the newer situations,
I forced myself to smile…
This is the vitality of life, I tell myself
To be happy when you are sad
To go on when you are tired
I forced myself to the conditions so bad….

The repulsion continued to be more and more
No way but to gulp it down the throat
It tastes like a bitter poison
That slowly kills you, makes you immobile
My life, I feel, is amidst a torrent of a wild river
And the harder I find to balance my boat..

I move on smiling as ever
The tears have stopped now…
The emotions feel waived off from my heart
It’s a stone…doesn’t cry, doesn’t bow
The stone filled path welcomes me more and more
And I go on, my head held high…

Life is the like, I know
Repulsion and bitterness, poisonous every step
I shall gulp it all again and continue to give joy
For the one who drinks poison
Can in truth lead a cure
And save many others in a grip alike
For sure, for sure, for sure……

Humbleness

The strength in me is immense, I’m proud
The power I display is immense, I say aloud

Once darkness surrounded me, there was no drop of light
I was in dismay, it wasn’t a good sight
Still I went on with a heart of hopes
My strength and power are the powerful ropes
I went on and on, I wasn’t sure where
But I had to proceed sometime somewhere

No drop of light, I can see for sure
Just the silence of darkness, that was more and more
I fell here and I fell there
I stroked a rock
I bled…I don’t care!!

Once I fell so heavy on the ground
I lost my senses, I lost my pride
I was drenched, in the mud and dirt
I knew for sure, this time, I was hurt

For quite sometime I couldn’t realise
But the pain in me, made me a little wise
Slowly and slowly I started to rise
Oh lord! I prayed, please lend me a guide..

My prayers were answered when I could praise
I saw you in the dark to help me raise
U held my hand and took me up
U cleaned my dirt that was so much tough

I thank my lord who sent you here
To take me out from so much fear
I learnt a lesson to remember in life
To be as humble as a beggar’s wife.

The only thing that I now fear
That I don’t fall again when no ones near
But I know for sure when I am here
If I fall down, you ‘ll always be there
You’ll always be there…

Carried away…

He took me by the hand, and led me along…
To feel his warmth, it didn’t take me long…
We flew together exploring horizons
The feeling of freedom,no bounds, no divisions

Suddenly I realized that I have gone too far
Oh please stop, I said, don’t take me so far.

He sat beside me and touched my lips
He caressed my hair in sweet little tips
As he did that He whispered in my ear
“Count on me, my love I am always near”

The feeling of his touch intoxicated me much
And I fell on the ground, lifeless, as such…
He touched me again, He loved me some more
He loved me a little, as he loved me for long…

Tranquility surrounded and I was in dreams
I wish I never wake up so real as it seems…

This dream would never break, I know
When u are there for me
And we would be together
Forever with thee

My faith in u
Will never show a crack
When I get carried away with you
In this lovely dreamy track.