I WANT TO BE…

I want to be the friend
That u have been to me;
I want to be the soul mate
That u have meant to me

I want to mean as much to u
Each minute of the day
As you have always meant to me
Along each step of the way


I want to do the biggest and
The smallest things for u
That will brush the grays out of yr skies
And leave them only blue


I want to say the sweeter things
So often that I have heard
And feel that I could rouse your soul
The way mine u have stirred

I want to give you back the joy
That u have always given me
Yet I wish this need for you
Will never seem to be


I want you to feel as sheltered
As much as I who travel on
Undaunted in the darkest hours
With you to lean upon


I wish at this time that
I could but repay
A portion of the gladness that
You have always strewn along my way

And I have just one wish this life
And that would only be
I want to be the friend
That u have been to me

Sleep

Hold me tight and make me sleep
My tiredness keeps me in a state so deep

I want a dream so sweet to see
That would take us to a place to be….

Do hold me tight so that I forget
That both of us are far apart

Let me be in a dream so true
Where you’ll be there for me to hold to….

a handful of sky....

A homely house, a bit of warm sunshine
A small garden and some flowers
A terrace to stand and face the morning sun
A bit of earth and some showers

A bit of annoyance and some bit of comfort
A little bit of anger with a little bit of calm
Oodles of happiness with no place for the gloom
A home made of love and joy filled in a palm

I dream so often for a home sweet home
Where I find myself sheltered in your arms
I dream of being beside you for ever and a day
It takes me to tranquility and I feel the charm

Some laughter would be added as the days would pass by
Some sweetness more added to the happiness present
A lullaby, a song, some music, a melody or a tune…
Oh! I long for a life of lives so decent

I long for a handful of sky
I long to be with you forever
I long for the bliss so precious
I long for the days of happiness ever…

THE PASSION

I feel you…
That you are touching me
I dream of you…
That you are loving me

I close my eyes
To feel your touch
And I find myself
In your arms so much

You look at me with love filled eyes
You take me to some distant place
I feel that I am flying high
I find myself much in solace

When your lips touch mine
I find myself in tranquility
When you caress me as such
I remain within you in serenity

The traversing hands overcome my vigor
I let myself to you
The tremble increases my heartbeats
I long to be within you

You embrace me
And hold me tight
You explore me
I don’t know what’s right

The love goes on
And take us along
I begin to loose myself
In the tune of our song

The passion overpowers both of us
Time and again
I close my eyes and feel
Within each other we remain

This love is maddening I realize…
I long to be with you so much
A love so zealous, so passionate
I know its irresistible as such..

melody of the heart

A silence surrounds the heart
Some unknown force holds it captive at all times
I hear a voice that calls me all the while
And I recall some forgotten melody of the heart….

A song filled with so much pain
It traps me in anguish
A reflection of self
That entails the pain of the soul….

A feeling of self destruction mystifies up my mind
It leads me to a never ending depth of hopelessness

I try in vain but
The heart continues to sing
So disturbing at times
I cry aloud in frustration

The melody never changes its tone
A pain so monotonous….
So aching, so ugly
It has now conquered the mind so completely

But still when I think in depth
There is something an attraction
I love it within hatred
And sing it in desperation

The melody of the heart
Remains in the deepest of the depths
And the heart continue to dance to its tunes
No matter what happens to the rest….

the monkey and the princess

once upon a time there was a little princess
she was born to loving parents who loved her like a pearl.
so sweet was her voice and so beautiful was her hair
she was loved by one and all, she was raised by so much care.

the princess once met a monkey and fell in love with it
so sweet was the monkey that she always wanted him to meet!!
the monkey also loved her and dreamt of her for so long
it took a pretty long time for him to even greet!!

a time came when they got drifted from their little world of wonder
there was no princess for the monkey and everything was a blunder..
the princess cried for the monkey and prayed all day and night
and hoped that there would be a day that would bring the monkey right...

it was a day so wonderfull when it happpened for both of them
the monkey met the princess and they were all in love again
a day so beautiful, a time that took them through
the days of innocence reverted and they knew what they gained

the princess now realised that the monkey was the prince
whom she had always always loved and cared for
and the monkey too realised that he waited for her so long
and none would let go eachother till death do them part for..

this is the story of the monkey who loved the princess so much
this is the story of the princess who loved the monkey as much
a love so true and pure, a love that taught them to cry
a love so filled with feelings that taught them to fly high

i pray for them always , for their love to survive
and i pray for their long life filled with love and a lot of strife
and i know that one day there will be a moment of joy
when both of them will have a love filled life!!!

The Life Inside

My heart beats faster as I appreciate the life within me
I feel on top of the world as he starts to talk
I feel him now, I feel him every time
As I sit with him, as I take a walk

Days passed by and he grew with me
Talking to me always, and smiling
I still try hard to feel his shift
For it’s a deal between us of caring

Nervousness surrounds me every time
Sometimes he is so silent…
And as abrupt as it may sound
Yes, he is a bit too violent

He was growing, I could feel him breathe
And the heart was beating along
I talked to him all day all night
And took him for rides so long

One day he said to me, “Mamma
Please let me come to your world.
I’ll make you happy when you play with me
And I’ll turn your days to gold!”

The special moment of joy was there
As he smiled at me with delight
I took him in my lap so large
He was so sweet, so small, and so light…

I can’t remember how the days had passed
When I first felt his being inside
And my eyes fill with tears of happiness
As I see him sleeping beside….

I promise you my son today
I will give you a life of gold
But please don’t forget your mamma
As she grows some years old!!

Missing each other

I think of you, my helpless heart cries aloud
So much pain, I crib from inside
A feeling of desperation surrounds me
You are not there to sit beside

Days, I feel, are longer than ever
The nights are so cruel to me
I try to tell myself to be strong
And fight the heart that’s as lonely as me

Is it the same with you?
I ask this myself over and over again
And I feel the pain of your heart
I know there is nothing to gain…

Walking along with each other
We are in the same trail
And we are always together
But just like the tracks of a rail

But I do believe in destiny
For it’s the one that got us together
And I shall have patience a lot
For destiny to decide, nothing else does matter…

With this thought in my heart and mind
I shall keep on loving you
As I have always been
From the days of remembrance all through

I know my sweetheart
You too are in the same situation
But one thing we must realize
There will be a time which will change all condition

Till that time my darling
I will always be with you
Loving you, care for you
Adore you, always understand you

This time of testing won’t last long, I am sure
Because there is always a silver lining
Behind every dark cloud, it’s said
I believe the sun will shine upon us, forever smiling

The Wake up Call

I was sleeping on the lonesome bed
A pillow lay beside me hopelessly
Trying so hard to get some sleep
A distant dream annoying me so naturally

It was hard for me to fall asleep
I tried in vain to be in the dream
It wasn’t painless to be awake when
You stay awake in my thoughts and my dreams

I thought of you through the day
I thought of you all night long
You were there just beside me
Humming the tone of that beautiful song

The dream took me to those sweet moments
When we were together alone
No one in between, nobody to bother
Just the two of us in the moments bygone

I remember the feeling of your touch
The taste of sweet nectar…..
The feeling of anticipation doesn’t seem to fade off
It lingers on every now and after….

My nights go by just like this
Thinking of you, turning from a side to the other
Wish you were there to calm down
Every day, every night and another

The dream still disturbed me
Took me down the thoughts
And I found it so hard to fall asleep
I wish you were there to love me lots

I lay quietly over the bed
My eyes wide open, still dreaming
When I heard some distant tone
I realized, it was my phone that’s ringing

I heard your voice in whispers
Tried to figure out hard
Those three little words…..
Which my heart does always guard

The love we share is immortal, I realized
Beyond imagination or comparison…..
Extraordinarily unforgettable….
It needs no elucidation, illumination, revelation….

The wake up call made my day
Today, everyday and always
It’s now hard for me to turn it down
I know it’s you, anyways…….

Remembrance

Childhood days are mine, they bring happiness
The bygone days of life, I remember, kill my loneliness
Innocence recreated, reincarnated…..
My remembrance is what left of me now,
Sweetness, jolliness, cheerfulness!!

There was play, there was a song
There were fights, so lovely, so long…
There were days filled with fun
There were days filled with sunshine
My days of childhood are always mine….

The festives were a treat for me
New clothes, the food, the all new mood
Early to rise and late to bed
Oh!! Everything was so good!!

The rains would bring some extra happiness
Poodles of water and loads of mud
The school’s a must in the season…..
And after the shower that the earth would have
Some greener grass, the cleaner roads, a few little flower buds

Childhood love was also there
A love so innocent and pure…..
An attraction that’s never fatal
Its just natural….i am sure!

The share and care which always ruled
Our little minds and hearts
I feel so good when I think of it
And I go back to that part….

It was a world of our own created
Where we ruled all sorts
No punishments, no regulations
No verdict of courts

But what remains of now is remembrance
And still it’s solely mine
Sweetness, jolliness, cheerfulness
A feeling so divine

I’ll treasure it always and pass it on
To my child who needs a guide
And he would pass it on to his next
A pleasure to think it right!!

Repulsion

The bitterness was high, I realized
It led to so much of repulsion
The sweetness in me couldn’t defuse it
The deterioration persisted as it worsened the condition

Amidst all odds I had to carry on
For I have always been a winner!!
It’s so unlikely that I loose the battle with life
I fear and prepare for the worse
And tell myself, I will not be a loser...

I conditioned myself to the newer situations,
I forced myself to smile…
This is the vitality of life, I tell myself
To be happy when you are sad
To go on when you are tired
I forced myself to the conditions so bad….

The repulsion continued to be more and more
No way but to gulp it down the throat
It tastes like a bitter poison
That slowly kills you, makes you immobile
My life, I feel, is amidst a torrent of a wild river
And the harder I find to balance my boat..

I move on smiling as ever
The tears have stopped now…
The emotions feel waived off from my heart
It’s a stone…doesn’t cry, doesn’t bow
The stone filled path welcomes me more and more
And I go on, my head held high…

Life is the like, I know
Repulsion and bitterness, poisonous every step
I shall gulp it all again and continue to give joy
For the one who drinks poison
Can in truth lead a cure
And save many others in a grip alike
For sure, for sure, for sure……

Humbleness

The strength in me is immense, I’m proud
The power I display is immense, I say aloud

Once darkness surrounded me, there was no drop of light
I was in dismay, it wasn’t a good sight
Still I went on with a heart of hopes
My strength and power are the powerful ropes
I went on and on, I wasn’t sure where
But I had to proceed sometime somewhere

No drop of light, I can see for sure
Just the silence of darkness, that was more and more
I fell here and I fell there
I stroked a rock
I bled…I don’t care!!

Once I fell so heavy on the ground
I lost my senses, I lost my pride
I was drenched, in the mud and dirt
I knew for sure, this time, I was hurt

For quite sometime I couldn’t realise
But the pain in me, made me a little wise
Slowly and slowly I started to rise
Oh lord! I prayed, please lend me a guide..

My prayers were answered when I could praise
I saw you in the dark to help me raise
U held my hand and took me up
U cleaned my dirt that was so much tough

I thank my lord who sent you here
To take me out from so much fear
I learnt a lesson to remember in life
To be as humble as a beggar’s wife.

The only thing that I now fear
That I don’t fall again when no ones near
But I know for sure when I am here
If I fall down, you ‘ll always be there
You’ll always be there…

Carried away…

He took me by the hand, and led me along…
To feel his warmth, it didn’t take me long…
We flew together exploring horizons
The feeling of freedom,no bounds, no divisions

Suddenly I realized that I have gone too far
Oh please stop, I said, don’t take me so far.

He sat beside me and touched my lips
He caressed my hair in sweet little tips
As he did that He whispered in my ear
“Count on me, my love I am always near”

The feeling of his touch intoxicated me much
And I fell on the ground, lifeless, as such…
He touched me again, He loved me some more
He loved me a little, as he loved me for long…

Tranquility surrounded and I was in dreams
I wish I never wake up so real as it seems…

This dream would never break, I know
When u are there for me
And we would be together
Forever with thee

My faith in u
Will never show a crack
When I get carried away with you
In this lovely dreamy track.

The Sea & The Survivor

The sea is deep and the tide is high
My life feels so unsure, insecure
Deep inside I feel the pain and cry
Alas! no one’s there to do the cure

I float along the waves
Every small one strikes
Still I go on with the strides
With the lows and the highs…

The taste of salt cuts through my lips
I long for the thirst of the water so sweet
When would there be the smell of land?
When would there be a place so neat?

Sailing along the waves so strong
I know nothing to fight them back
They take me here, they take me there
Don’t know how much the strength I lack!

In the middle of the sea, I see myself
Lonely, desperate, much in despair
And a stench of seawater
Added up to the layer

A birdie flew past me
Laughing at my state of loneliness
I did realize then
The meaning of godliness

We come alone
We live alone
We do sail alone
And we all pass alone…

The thought took its toll
And I was again all alone
No one to share the despair
All that existed were gone

There is darkness everywhere
There is silence
Only that remained was
The ocean’s senescence



The sea leads to nowhere
Meeting the sky at the end
Is an illusion
The reality is just a bend….

I sailed through the nights
I sailed through the days
The thoughts came flashing
In so many little ways…

The sea is now my own
I have learnt to love it!
There is no other way
Else to explore it!

The silence is the language
I talk it aloud
The senescence is the harmony
I feel inside the crowd

Perhaps this is the way
I must learn to live
And sail through the life
And begin to believe

The calmness of the sea taught me a lot
To sail through rough waters
And find myself a slot.
Whether or not I am ashore
I must sail through
The life for more

I know I’m alone
But still do believe
The sea will end and there is some land
For me to live

So I pray my lord
To give me some might
I believe some day
I will get my destiny right.
Yes, I believe
I will get my destiny right.

For the one I love

For the one I love
My heart told me today
To let it out for u
But when and how
I don’t know for true.
The day I met u
I knew it for sure
There’s something ignited
For both of us to lure.
The days passed by
And I waited for the spark
It happened one day
That led you to my mark.
Since then its happened
And that both of us know
We are made for each other
Don’t care if the whole world comes to know!!

I know sweetheart
you are much confused
But its time for me
To get diffused
Pretty much into u!!

Love is not just loving
Love is not to take
Its not even to give
Which sounds pretty fake!!
Love is to standby
For someone you care
Love is to be there
When you want to share..

Love is not god
Neither its so great
But it’s a perfect word
For us to be innate.
It wouldn’t have been easy
For me to understand
But only for you, my darling
I am in this state.

That’s why, my sweetheart
My heart told me today
To let it out for you
But when and how
I don’t know for true…
Really…
I don’t know for true…